Straight Men Are Confessing Their ‘Gayest’ Experiences

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“When I was younger, I had a best friend. As kids do, we had sleepovers. One night, I remember we were playing Truth or Dare, and I ‘truthed’ him about whether or not he had ever masturbated. Of course, he did, and he asked me the same question. Of course, I did as well. Naturally, we didn’t stop there. That night, he dared me to masturbate. I was in the ‘hump my mattress’ phase. He thought this was hilarious and told me I was doing it wrong. I asked him what he meant, and he told me to roll over. That’s when my best friend jacked me off. After he was done, I returned the favor.”

“I remember waking up the next morning and feeling disgusting, never wanting to hang out with him again, but in a few days, we were back to playing video games together. In a couple of weeks, we had another sleepover, and we progressively got more and more comfortable jacking each other off and just generally being horny around each other. Sometimes when we were home alone, we would just whip it out and start masturbating while playing GoldenEye 007. We eventually started watching porn together, and we started sucking each other’s dicks.

Honestly, looking back, it was absolutely awesome, and I don’t regret a minute of it — but the amount of shame I felt at the time was overwhelming. It was a secret that we had that we couldn’t let anyone else know about… Hell, as this progressed through the early years of high school, we’d continue our shenanigans while we had our own girlfriends.

We ended up falling entirely out of contact. I’m pretty sure he ended up coming out of the closet completely. Me? I’m straight. Or at least primarily straight. The thought of what we did and how taboo it was gets me going to this day. Guys aren’t attractive to me, but stories that are similar to my own get me incredibly horny incredibly quickly.”

—wetbatross